Boyz dont need to cry

Sometimes during break ups in a relationship, you might not be over you ex yet. Same is true for your ex, sometimes they are not completely over you. Is your ex showing signs that he or she is interested in you again? Hold on. Don’t rush like a fool. Here are the things you can do to make sure your ex will not hurt your feelings. There are defined signals that your ex wants to get back with you again. This does not mean that you should jump the gun and gush out your feelings for your ex.

My soul aches,
My heart breaks.
A tear in my eye,
I’ll forever cry.
I wish my pain away,
I wish it away today.
Why does it hurt so bad,
Does this make him glad?
Why does he douse my inner flame?
Was this breakup my blame?
What did I do to deserve this?
I just wish I could have one last kiss.

Why am I so heartbroken?

A depressed soul I’ll always be,
Everyone will always see.
I will be strong,
Because he was wrong.
This is now the past,
It’s going very fast.
Love so simple, but hard to say,
It keeps me living another day.
I’m drowning in thoughts of how things use to be,
My chest was shut tight, complete with purity.
It’s been a bad day,
I’ll try letting it not show,
Another sad day, I’m just letting it go.

Why am I so heartbroken?

First time – shame on you ….. second time – shame on me?

That’s how it goes, right?

First, if you are a victim – document, document, document. It’s not easy to admit to anyone – police, doctor, friends, family and especially yourself, that you have allowed yourself to been a victim of spousal abuse, but make sure you have the necessary documentation, it will prove to be invaluable!!!

Beyond he said, she said……

Secondly, abuse strikes at the very heart of your own core, especially for the woman that swore “that will never happen to me”. People will claim to not believe it – but I have learned, especially in this divorce, that you will never know someone until you live with them. When people tell me that they can’t believe that I was a victim of physical abuse, because I’m a pretty strong person BUT they also have a hard time believing it because of the “image’ that STBE puts forward. Unless you have been around a drug addict/alcoholic, you’ll never understand the inner workings of a drug addict’s mind. I really am tired of bringing this up – it is what it is. He beat me up, he apologized, and we move forward. Although the beating wasn’t witnessed, his apology was overhead. Unknown to me, the child has watched STBE doing drugs for years – child is NO stranger to the bizarre happenings!! I think it was child’s knowledge that finally made me realize that it was unhealthy for child. (Unfortunately, although he admitted the drug addiction, he refused any assistance until it was too late) He knows he did it, I know he did it and God knows he did it – so whether he wants to admit it to others, is not my business. I have pictures of the bruises. I discussed the incident when I asked for help with the addiction problem that we were having inside our marriage. Again, it happened…whether he wants to admit it or not.

I am beyond chewing this shit again. First time, shame on you……second time? THERE WON’T EVER BE A SECOND OPPORTUNITY!!!

AND BECAUSE HE WAS AN ALCOHOL INFUSED DRUG ADDICT, I HAD PLENTY OF OPPORTUNITY TO PAY HIM BACK, MY MOTHER USED TO JOKE, “YOU HAVE TO SLEEP SOMETIME!”, I’M NOT THAT KIND OF PERSON, I WOULD NEVER HAVE HURT HIM – I COULD HAVE….. HE ASKED ME TO SHOOT HIM IN THE HEAD MORE THAN ONCE!!! I AM SO BLESSED TO BE AWAY FROM THE CRAZINESS!!!

Flexie S. Manabat

Its started when we are in high school then everyday we seen in campus. Then her schoolmate talk to me about her that she is really like me seens we are so young, Everyday we writing a letter to know more about me and her. well god knows that time we are both crushing each other, then we got loved MAY 10, 2005. Everyday i pray for god, because that girl i thought she is my future wife. Her parents doesn’t like me, and i don’t realize that her parents don’t like me. but we fight for loved. And that girl is that i loved. when we got in 1st year anniversary MAY 10, 2006 i pay for her study in vocational because her dreams is to caregiver someday, and because i love her so much i do my best i can for her, i pay all bills because her both parents can’t give her dreams because they are not rich, then i pay at the school of caregiver P50,000. To her dreams i can;t do what i can because i really really like her so much. Everyday we are talking and story when we are happy, Then past has come, When we both in years 2nd year anniversarry MAY 10, 2007 we have enjoy to real relationship, and then to my part we going to all relatives to meet my girl. then all of my relatives and family vote for her and happy for her. because she is very pretty, precious, beautiful. Then she become tollay graduated in Course of Caregiver. Then past has come again her love to me become weak. Then we celebrating again our 3rd year anniversary MAY 10,2008 then the love become so weak, but i fight for what my feelings to her i give everything, i sacrifice all my time my family my friends nothing. Then when November 2008. i never thought that she is cheating me that she have 3rd party i feel so depressed i don’t imagine that she can do that things to me. December 2008 she sorry for me for what she done, Well because i really love her so much i don’t care what she do for me, well you guess i totally forgive her. (Akala ko pa nman hindi nya na ako lolokohin pa) January 2009 well i guess she is starting again cheating i feel so dumb but my guess is true. February 2009 we almost fighting everyday. March 27, 2009 its my b-day but she is not at my side i am so alone, I am in my room i locked up crying like a baby but its true. Then Becoming April 2009 she said; she is not happy for me anymore she’s not enjoing for the relationship after all years she doing that? for me? what i do wrong… then May 1, 2009 before our 4rt Anniversarry (Nagdecide na akong makipagbreak sakanya dahil nasasaktan lang ako, And sakit sobra ng ginawa nya sakin, pinagpalit ko na lahat para lang sakanya binigay ko na lahat ng meron ako, inubos ko lang oras ko para sakanya. Wala siyang utang na loob sakin, halos hindi nya na appriciate ung mga sacrifices ko para lang sakanya. That’s why i decided to break her up. Pero hanggang ngayon naghihinayang ako sa mga oras na sinayang ko sa mga ginastos ko para lang sakanya, Masyado akong nagpaka tanga. Binigay ko kasi lahat ng pagmamahal ko sakanya. Pero its hard to Move on. Happy Memories become Worse ending for me now. SObrang sakin hindi ko na yata kaya pa. I doses of pills to my dead but god save me because she dont let me die. EveryDay everytime everysecond i always remember her how i supposed to forget her. in my dreams she’s in there too. Palagi nlang akong nakatanga, umiiyak. palagi akong malungkot. Naawa na ako sa sarili ko. Nagyon hindi ko mahanap kung saan ako magStart ulit.

Thanks to all reader, This is my true loved worse ending.